Honey Mustard AND Ranch

Today I ordered some food from one of my favorite local resturants and as I sit here ready to eat it, I realize that I have two sauces to go with my meal. Normally people (yes this is a generalization, but I do work for a resturaunt so I can assume from experience) only get one sauce to go with their meal/salad. Not I, I can't settle for just one.

So I'm now pondering what this says about me. I'm going to be honest with you, and myself, and say that in more than one genre of my life do I take this indecisive stance= meaning not a stance at all. I often let my feelings in the moment dictate what I eat or where I'm going. Sometimes I find myself not wanting to miss out on something but instead to experience things fully.

Let's look specifically at the sauces (honey mustard and ranch), now both of these sauces are good. I mean really good. Like both are in my top sauce choices and on this special day I'm have some sweet potato chips with them. Side note, if you haven't experienced the phenomenon that is sweet potato chips, you're really missing out. I don't get how they taste so good. Alright, back on track, so these two sauces. I wasn't sure if I'd want honey mustard, or ranch more with my food today. Unfortunately, one will more than likely be chosen over the other and I'll end up throwing away a good bit of the less popular sauce. Now that just goes for today though.

I actually just finished my lunch and sure enough, the majority of the ranch went in the trash. This is no reflection on how great the ranch is. The ranch was wonderful. This leaves a question in my mind though. So I claim to want to experience things deeply, so if I'm trying to experience two things at once, then I'm not experiencing either of them fully. But if I pick just one, then I feel like I'm missing out on the other.

Let's bring this to real life. Currently I'm in a relationship with someone I've dated for over a year now and I'm freaking out inside. Looking for any sign of incompatablity for an excuse to leave. Now here's what I'm afraid of, that I'll end up with this amazing person only to find that someone else is great too.

Ranch used to be my favorite sauce. I'd have it as a faithful companion to every meal. But then I got tired of it. Does that happen with people? Do we just view people in a selfish way? If I'm just with someone because I find it convenient and easy is that worth anything? Why did my ranch sauce get old? The taste was the same.

This is just something I'm dealing with and I wonder if anyone can relate.