My Coffee Experience

Today is Tuesday and yesterday was of course Monday. Well recently (within the last half week), my body has not been getting enough caffeine. Actually, the truth is, I've been getting plenty of caffeine but I've been plagued with fatigue! I'm a bit in denial. The thing is about a month ago I was existing off of black tea and only a few glasses at that. For whatever reason I didn't need too much substance to get through the day. This has NOT been the case recently. Take yesterday for instance, I worked at my coffeeshop job. I consumed about 2 cups of coffee, in the middle of the afternoon might I add, and by 6 o'clock I dozed off in my recliner while watching "Take Home Chef" on TLC (I LOVE THAT SHOW!) Then yesterday night, I went to visit my boyfriend, Matty, and help him pick out a picture frame for this amazing print from Key West that he acquired from his parents. Anyhow, last night while getting some soup for dinner from my favorite restaurant, I also got a small drip coffee. At this particular restaurant, I typically get the "dark and vibrant" roast, because let's face it, I like to be exotic and with a description of coffee like that, who wouldn't want to drink it?! So as I prepared to indulge myself in this spendid coffee, my nostrils were filled with the aroma of, NOT the dark and vibrant, no, the hazelnut flavored blend! I, at first, was puzzled and I thought to myself " Perhaps they've changed the dark roast to something with a more floral scent, if you will" but upon tasting the coffee, I knew my greatest fears had come true....they mixed up the coffees! NOOOO!!!! Okay, okay, it wasn't all that dramatic, but regardless, when I obtained my coffee I expected to drink my usual, constant, dark and vibrant, but instead got a flavored, less flamboignant roast. There as I drove to Matty's apartment, drinking the coffee out of complete spite, I realized that life is a bit like that at times. We buy something that we know we love, or we do something that we love, but sometimes find ourselves disappointed by a change in our routine. Because they had mixed up the coffee I found myself momentarily disgusted by the restaurant all together. Take friendships for instance, or maybe even a dating relationship, you get to know a person and hang out with them day in and day out for months, years on end. You think that you know everything there is to know about the person (or the coffee for analogy purposes) and then one day, inevitably, they mess up or change. Something that was so constant and stable gets shifted or altered. They say something slightly mean or act out in a moment of frustration, or disagree with something where they would have normally agreed, and you're left feeling completely abandoned and let down. In times like these, I find myself forced to reevaluate my priorities. Instead of putting some much worth in the dark and vibrant coffee, I should have just appreciated the experience of drinking it. What if we approached every relationship in our lives with a similar attitude? Instead of finding a false comfort in the availability and actions of a person, we find purpose and intention in just loving and spending valuable time with them? Not for what WE can get from the relationship, but perhaps what we can give. Forgiveness is a very powerful thing and even as I type that word, I cringe inside over the memory upon memory of times when I've held back forgiveness and clung to a grung out of fear of me being embarrassed (how vain!). That's just a ridiculous thought isn't it? Getting back to my coffee mix-up, I'm actually sitting at that very restaurant that performed the despicable mishap just yesterday, writing this blog! I say, in all aspects of your life, choose forgiveness and move on with the relationship! There's a wonderful quote from Garden State that I like to think of from time to time when I find myself caught up in taking life too seriously..."You better learn how to make fun of yourself, because if you don't , life's going to be a lot longer than you want it to be." So I leave you with that today! Enjoy the day and most of all, enjoy living it!